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Chill out. Don't get stressed. Smile.

Have you heard those phrases and rolled your eyes...

I have. When you suffer from depression any one of those phrases make you want to pull your eyeballs out and scream. 

My depression came when I had my first miscarriage. I say first because if you read my previous post of miscarriage you know they happen. You can't guarentee when but it will happen.

I cried and accepted and moved on. 

But the thing is I thought I moved on, my body, my life and everything moved on without me. 

I started getting irritable. I started to get sad. I never used that word until then but I would keep saying I just feel sad. Not upset, I feel the word upset made it seem it was temporary. Sad meant I felt it all the time.

It wasn't until a cry for help happened in my life. I'm not ready to explain what happened but I needed help. I was shocked to find that help was so easy to find if I knew where I was looking. 

Help came in the shape of doctors, friends, family and fresh air.

Fresh air became so important because when you feel depressed you don't sleep and when you sleep you don't want to wake up.

Fresh air meant I felt free and the only time I didn't feel numb. 

I'm still recovering, so I'm not going to tell you how to get better or say it goes. 

But I'm here to just say it will be OK and enjoy the little things.



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Miscarriage| SIMPLY KATSINELLA

MISCARRIAGE.

It’s such a scary word…

It’s the taboo word of newly pregnant mummies who think even saying it out loud will jinx they’re little bundle of joy who is all snuggled away and working hard in the womb.

But it happens, “Miscarriages are much more common than most people realise. Among women who know they're pregnant, it's estimated one in six of these pregnancies will end in miscarriage”.How scary is that, one in six - in theory it’s almost a normal thing, an everyday thing if you will.

I wouldn't describe it as an everyday thing.

I would describe it as life changing, heart breaking and an emotional challenge.

I remember sitting in bed crying to my partner ‘ How can something so small, bring everyone so much joy and so much pain into this world’

One in six - in theory it’s almost a normal thing, an everyday thing if you will.

I wouldn’t describe it as an everyday thing.

I would describe it as a huge cloud above you that only yourself can see. You have to go about the world pretending this cloud doesn’t exist but in fact it’s raining. Hard, relentless and at the time no sign of stopping. Not for anyone.

There needs to be more awareness and more empathy towards those who have suffered a loss. Not a miscarriage. It’s a loss.

More sympathy towards those who struggle conceiving, for those who have fertility issues, for those who just can not have children.

But also don’t forget to celebrate those who can carry those little bundles of happiness into the world.

You never know who , when or where this may have happened. But please be aware of who, when and where you are when you comment on something so common and heart breaking as miscarriage.

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