Brighton, Shopping and over coming fears| SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Last weekend I faced my fears. Brighton. The city itself isn't one of my fears its the crowds and panic that I experience.

Brighton is busy, full of workers, shoppers, students. That's our kryptonite for us who suffer from anxiety. I braved the hussle and bussle and stayed at my own pace. We wandered around the shops, picking a few things from KIKO, TIGER and more.

The vibe around Brighton is a busy city in a seaside town, bringing all kinds of people from around the world.
Usually I would avoid places like this like the plague.
But I was fine, I wasn't rushed and I feel accomplished overcoming a fear and actually had a lovely day out and discovered the beauty of Brighton.
What I've learnt is to say yes to things more and what's the worse that could happen?


SIDE NOTE: They have a freaking homesense in the town centre!!! *bootie wiggle*

I have a KIKO review coming soon, so keep an eye out for that.

....and breath |SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Chill out. Don't get stressed. Smile.

Have you heard those phrases and rolled your eyes...

I have. When you suffer from depression any one of those phrases make you want to pull your eyeballs out and scream. 

My depression came when I had my first miscarriage. I say first because if you read my previous post of miscarriage you know they happen. You can't guarentee when but it will happen.

I cried and accepted and moved on. 

But the thing is I thought I moved on, my body, my life and everything moved on without me. 

I started getting irritable. I started to get sad. I never used that word until then but I would keep saying I just feel sad. Not upset, I feel the word upset made it seem it was temporary. Sad meant I felt it all the time.

It wasn't until a cry for help happened in my life. I'm not ready to explain what happened but I needed help. I was shocked to find that help was so easy to find if I knew where I was looking. 

Help came in the shape of doctors, friends, family and fresh air.

Fresh air became so important because when you feel depressed you don't sleep and when you sleep you don't want to wake up.

Fresh air meant I felt free and the only time I didn't feel numb. 

I'm still recovering, so I'm not going to tell you how to get better or say it goes. 

But I'm here to just say it will be OK and enjoy the little things.



TAKE CARE,
SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Miscarriage| SIMPLY KATSINELLA

MISCARRIAGE.

It’s such a scary word…

It’s the taboo word of newly pregnant mummies who think even saying it out loud will jinx they’re little bundle of joy who is all snuggled away and working hard in the womb.

But it happens, “Miscarriages are much more common than most people realise. Among women who know they're pregnant, it's estimated one in six of these pregnancies will end in miscarriage”.How scary is that, one in six - in theory it’s almost a normal thing, an everyday thing if you will.

I wouldn't describe it as an everyday thing.

I would describe it as life changing, heart breaking and an emotional challenge.

I remember sitting in bed crying to my partner ‘ How can something so small, bring everyone so much joy and so much pain into this world’

One in six - in theory it’s almost a normal thing, an everyday thing if you will.

I wouldn’t describe it as an everyday thing.

I would describe it as a huge cloud above you that only yourself can see. You have to go about the world pretending this cloud doesn’t exist but in fact it’s raining. Hard, relentless and at the time no sign of stopping. Not for anyone.

There needs to be more awareness and more empathy towards those who have suffered a loss. Not a miscarriage. It’s a loss.

More sympathy towards those who struggle conceiving, for those who have fertility issues, for those who just can not have children.

But also don’t forget to celebrate those who can carry those little bundles of happiness into the world.

You never know who , when or where this may have happened. But please be aware of who, when and where you are when you comment on something so common and heart breaking as miscarriage.

TAKE CARE,

SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Number 14- 10th October 2016 Mental Health Awareness Day

There's some kind of taboo that seems to live in most house in the UK. That something as serious as mental health seems to be disregarded and swept under the rug. But not today.

Many people fear mental health because of lack of understanding. I'll put my hands up to this. Until recently I didn't understand mental health issues until I became aware of it myself. I honestly didn't understand depression or anxiety that why I never dwelled on it, and seemed to push the conversation away from me. Yes it was wrong, but no I shouldn't be shamed for it. 

To an outsiders, things like depression or anxiety seems finicky, or irrelevant. It because you could look like your fine from the outside, but no one but yourself, knows how you feel inside. It takes alot to understand it yourself, than to admit it to your peers.

Personally, my epilepsy came with some anxiety, it affected my outlook on day to day life. I was afraid to leave the house in the fear that something may happen. Which then can go on to lead to depression.

I'm not gonna say what most people say. Get over it. It doesn't matter, You'll be fine.

In your darkest moments you wont feel fine, but writing about it or talking about it seems to make me feel a bit lighter. Maybe that will help you to, or put your time and energy into something you enjoy, painting, dance, walking. Master you art, then master you life.

Your Strong.

I know there are many mental illness's out there, but heres my outlook on a few. 

Be kind to others, they maybe having a bad day. 

Take Care,

SIMPLYKATSINELLA