Number 21- DIY ANNIVERSARY GIFT

So it's that time of the year where were celebrating our anniversary. I think anniversaries are a time to celebrate the time together rather than lavish each other in gifts - that's what you can do for birthdays and christmas.

So I decided to create a scrap book of our time together. Simple, easy and sentimental (& cheap if your counting pennies atm)

STEP ONE: So I just found a simple scrap book in my collection (I'm a hoarder of stationary) but you can pick one up absolutely anywhere! Supermarkets or stationary shops. 

STEP TWO: I made a folder in my phone of nice pictures of me and my boyf and quotes I then used a app on my phone called 'FREE PRINTS' . Each month your entitled 45 images or so for free and just pay for P&P. - a right old bargain

STEP THREE: Buy some glue and any crafty bits you want to include.

STEP FOUR: I then just stuck images on different pages and labeled them with dates and anything significant that happened at that time. 

It did take me a couple of days in total to complete but well worth it and its something you can keep forever and look back at. My boyf loved it and some bits made him laugh, smile and cry at. Make it personal and write down things you would never dreamed of writing before. 

 Have you made your partner a gift like this before?- or something similar?

TAKE CARE,
SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Number 19 - ONE STEP BACK , TWO STEPS FORWARD

So I didn't know what to call this one. I just wanted to write down what I'm going through and call it day. But guess what I can't just call it a day- but I can most definitely reflect on this week.

Hands down my week hasn't been great, but I also feel like I've taken a step forward right direction.

Limits
This week has taught me my limits but also to try and test them. Its taught me the reason why I need to look after myself and not let everything plummet around me. Its taught me to say NO I can't let this happen- which for a stubborn young lady is a MASSIVE STEP. My anxiety has run me around in circles this week. Baring in mind I had my worse seizure Monday at work, got into work on Tuesday but felt no better.. but I tried. I got ready and I tried.

Boyfriend
He's is honestly my rock whether I'm sitting up in bed laughing with him, or laying on the bathroom floor crying. He just helps. He's up in the middle of the night with me if I have a seizure to convince me everythings ok. That's what I need. He's what I need.

Support of Friends and Family
This week has also taught me the strength that my friends and family give me. I received a lovely text message from one of my best friends which put a smile on my face. I'm not one to spill my feelings , I'd rather listen and help others. But shes proud of me. I love her for that.My other best friend is one message away and reassures any doubts that may come. My family well there brilliant anyway. Mums there to help me be strong and my Dads there for that reassuring hug to let me know I'll be OK. He's not one with words. But I knew that's what the hug meant. Shaun's family are great as well, checking up on me. I feel the strength that they all give me everyday. That's what helps me get up off the floor. 

Admitting when I need help
This is a big one for me, I struggle asking for help. Or asking to just let my feelings out. I just need to be the strong one. But sometimes admitting that I'm not strong and I need the help is all I can do. I usually feel the doctors are a waste of time, but I had to go. I needed help. I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.

Now.. I know what to call this post. ONE STEP BACK TWO STEPS FORWARD.

I just hope that this post may help someone , or relate to someone in similar circumstance.

Your strong, I'm Strong.

TAKE CARES,
SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Number 18 - It happened... again

Usually with my epilepsy I like to keep it in and not talk about it. But I suppose this may be a weight lifted off my shoulders.

So in 2014 I was diagnosed with Partial Epileptic Seizures. The type of seizures you zone out of everyday life, or most of the time have little seizures in my sleep. 

I originally went into the doctors with a suspected heart murmur. I was experiencing the feeling of my heart feeling like it was going to fast or gonna jump out of my chest. I had a doctors appointment, which I very nearly missed. One moment it was 3:30 next moment it was 4:30 and I didn't know where the time had gone. 

I had a specialist come specifically to the doctors to meet me so I'm lucky because I was so late he was able to see me. I phoned my mum in a panic as she was already at the doctors waiting.

At the time it seemed as if I had a panic attack- I never ever had one of them. 

We were all just talking and mum was explaining the doctor about times that I used to zone out , or I smelt burning, or my night terrors when I was younger.

I was then referred to a neurologist. After EEG's and MRI's I was diagnosed. I'm not gonna lie, it hurt finding out. I was learning to drive at the time , I also felt alone. I tried different medications and was told and Stress may be the cause of it all. 

Fast forward 2 years and I was having ups and downs. Some weeks/months I was skipping round fine, some days I found my self on the floor in the toilets at work after 'zoning out'.

I reduced days at work, and gave up college. But recently it flared up  again... (is that the right word)

I now have experienced full body seizures, where my body gives way and I fall the the ground and apparently convulse. I wake up confused. So I'm now waiting for a urgent neurologist appointment.

I feel epilepsy is such a closeted thing. I found I had no one to talk to about it at my age group. So hopefully writing this will give young adults a place they can come to relate to. No I'm not a QUEEN of bossing my seizures at the moment. But I am experiencing them. I'm fighting. 

So here's to keep you updated on my situation and I will write more posts about my journey in the future.

Keep Slaying,
Take Care,
SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Number 17- Lets jump into Autumn, keeping the stress away

I think Autumn is my fave season, I love the crisp fresh air in the morning, the crunch of leaves belief your feet and the fact I can get away with wearing dark lippy.

All my motivation starts in Autumn after summer where you drink and eat and its too hot to do any activity, October comes and I love going for walks wrapped up in my big scarf. 

On these walks I like to evaluate my week or my life. I think of how I felt that week and if I was down how to pick myself up again. Giving me motivation to keep going and not fail. Walks allow me to exercise any stress or anxiety I feel about certain situations. I.e work, epilepsy, relationships.

It also gets me out the house, sometimes I rarely leave the house. I work three days a week, so thats four days of each week I have to gain motivation to leave the house and not mope about all day. Its hard, but I do it.

Autumn also feels like the end of something and a beginning of a new part of life. Its where nature takes its course , ridding itself of the dead , useless leaves and soon to grow into something marvelous and beautiful. 

Halloweens soon , then bonfire night & Christmas. I love all three things, it brings friends and family together. The unity you need to stay strong and keeping pursuing your dreams.

What does Autumn mean to you?

TAKE CARE,

SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Number 16- Whats in my bag Autumn 2016 TAG

So if your like me , I love to watch/read whats going on in everyones handbags. Maybe I'm just nosey?

The Bag

My bags from New look it was gifted to me for my birthday and I love it. It's quite small in comparison to my other bags but I love the look of it. Its faux leather and a similar style to the 'celine' bags.

I love the gold hardware and subtle nude shade which isn't too pink and isn't too brown which allows me to wear it with pretty much anything. 

Inside

Inside the bag I keep my purse, sunglasses, phone, keys, lady necessities and a 'emergency kit' bag.

My purse is from river island and is just a practical purse, it matches the bag with the gold hardware. Tbh I thought keeping a light purse clean would be difficult , but the faux leather allows me to just to wipe down any mess with a bog standard baby wipe..

The sunglasses are just some cheap ones due to me losing my prescription ones so until I find some new ones these are just easy to chuck in.

I then just carry my phone (iphone 5s- which is on its last legs) my keys (The fluffy keyring is from 'peacocks'. Then my 'always' tin with some pads in. 

Finally I have my emergency kit bags. I love having this in my bag incase I need back up off anything.

The bags from a little gift shop from Greece. Inside this I have my Palmer lip balm, chewing gum, rapid bond nail fix glue, Rimmel London Apocalips Lip Lacquer by rimmel in the shade Apocoliptic, My epilepsy medication, a spare pen, sanctuary spa hand cream, my 'Twist and Spritz Rose Gold Atomiser' with my Olympia perfume in it and a marker pen which I use for work.

All in all theres the contents in my bag- well when its not cluttered with reciepts and empty breakfast bar packets.

One last thing- does any one else boyf/hubby/girlf/partner use your bag to carry there stuff too? Its drives me INSANE.

I wanna know whats in your handbag too so let me know!

TAKE CARE,

SIMPLYKATSINELLA

P.S I tag Nat from beautyboxobsessed.wordpress.com & Chelsey from chelseyprentice.com - Ive been obsessed with reading these two blogs for a little while now.

Number 15- Whats in my makeup bag

So currently I'm staying at my parents to look after there pets whilst there away. So I had to pack my makeup bag to last me the week.

So first thing I just found a makeup bag stashed away in the cupboard. This makeup bag has that neutral patent and bright pink bow, very similar to ted baker, its by gatineau.

Some of these bits you may have seen in my Summer Faves such as my foundation, wipes and liquid lipstick. 

FACE
Maybelline Stay 24 Foundation
Collection Concealer (Trusty blogger fave)
Rimmel Stay Matte Powder - Transparent
Seventeen Miracle Matte Powder (for baking undereyes)
Revolution Highlighter - Peach Lights 
Freedom Contour Palette -Fair
Miss Sporty- Cream Blush in Peach

EYEBROWS
Maybelline Colour Tattoo - Permanent Taupe
MAC eyeshadow -Cozy Grey
MUA - Clear Mascara

EYES
MAC Palette in Cool
Maybelline Push up Mascara
Collection Liquid waterproof eyeliner
Wild about Beauty in Penny

LIPS
Maybelline Vivid Matte Liquid Lipstick - Nude Flush
Sleek Matte Me Liquid Lipstick - Birthday Suit

OTHER
Garnier Micellar Water Wipes
Lee Stafford- Tangle Brush
Illamasqua - Pink Raindrops
Random brands of brushes including Real Techniques

Whats in your makeup bag, Let me know, or tag me your blogs or pics on twitter. Follow me @katsinella.

TAKE CARE,
SIMPLYKATSINELLA

P.S How do you like the new look?

DISCLAIMER- ALL ITEMS WERE BROUGHT WITH MY OWN MONEY

Number 14- 10th October 2016 Mental Health Awareness Day

There's some kind of taboo that seems to live in most house in the UK. That something as serious as mental health seems to be disregarded and swept under the rug. But not today.

Many people fear mental health because of lack of understanding. I'll put my hands up to this. Until recently I didn't understand mental health issues until I became aware of it myself. I honestly didn't understand depression or anxiety that why I never dwelled on it, and seemed to push the conversation away from me. Yes it was wrong, but no I shouldn't be shamed for it. 

To an outsiders, things like depression or anxiety seems finicky, or irrelevant. It because you could look like your fine from the outside, but no one but yourself, knows how you feel inside. It takes alot to understand it yourself, than to admit it to your peers.

Personally, my epilepsy came with some anxiety, it affected my outlook on day to day life. I was afraid to leave the house in the fear that something may happen. Which then can go on to lead to depression.

I'm not gonna say what most people say. Get over it. It doesn't matter, You'll be fine.

In your darkest moments you wont feel fine, but writing about it or talking about it seems to make me feel a bit lighter. Maybe that will help you to, or put your time and energy into something you enjoy, painting, dance, walking. Master you art, then master you life.

Your Strong.

I know there are many mental illness's out there, but heres my outlook on a few. 

Be kind to others, they maybe having a bad day. 

Take Care,

SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Number 13- SummerFaves

My Summer faves! Lets quickly talk about the HEAT in this years Summer! Oh my word. We were very lucky. But now the leaves are all falling and the crisp cold mornings are upon us. (Thank god!)

1st up this summer was the 'sanctuary spa cooling body sorbet & cooling shower drench' oh my, these were both mine and Shauns faves! First off after a hot day at the beach or in the sun you'd come home have a shower with the cooling shower drench, this leaves a crisp cold feeling against you body even in the heat of a shower. Perfect for sun burns, hop out the shower, and use the sorbet! Its instantly cooling and effective. I applied this on before I went to sleep so I could cosy up under the duvet in the heat!

Maybelline super stay 24hr foundation is a MUST HAVE this stays on all day - like it says on the tin. But with out a cakey look with a dewy finish. For a matte finish pop some powder on and voila bobs your uncle. I would wear this foundation and on my lips wear the Maybelline vivid matte liquid lipstick in the pinky colour ( It doesnt have a name on it anymore - damn ) This liquid lipstick feels moussey and an absolute dream to apply.

L'oreal elive clay masque- this is for a pamper day/evening. Usually before we go out for the night or day. It takes 15 mins, you slap it onto your routes and it lifts out grease. I used to follow this with the shampoo and conditioner, but I use just a tressemme one to just give it some more umpf.

Garnier Micellar water wipes are new to my list... Quite honestly tescos were out of simple wipes so I grabbed these. These are lovely, they feel like nothing on the skin but easily wipe away the days makeup. I will defo get these again!

Paca Rabanne Olympia. This has been my scent for the past year and for my birthday this year I got the big bottle - lucky girl! I love this smell, and its become recognisable among friends now.

Finally my 'journal' This is from sainsbury's in the back to school collection, I love this. I write my thoughts and ideas in this journal, and it makes me feel better if I ever feel anxious.

I've popped links to where you can get your hands on them. 

Take Care,

SIMPLY KATSINELLA

Number 12- Sleek Matte Me Liquid Lipstick

oh my, 'Sleek Matte Me Liquid Lipstick' thats a mouthful and a half.

So I picked up these beauties when I mooching along in the crimbo section of boots. I know its october.. and I've brought myself a crimbo pressie already. BUT it was four mini liquid lipstick for £5.00 bargain!

So shade number one is 'old hollywood' which is a deep and dark berry shade perfect for autumn and winter. Personally I find this shade has some red under tones which is very complimentary for EVERY skin tone. This one is so pigmented and easy to apply. But my goodness. This doesn't come off with out a fight. 

Shade number two is 'Velvet slipper' again this is another deep shade from the pack of four, but has more brown undertones. So maybe you could class it as a dark nude colour, or simply 'badass' I'm a rocker chick shade. Again very creamy and pigmented. Take care applying this one. Any mistakes then you will have a tough time removing!

Shade number three SCREAMS OUT CHRISTMAS its a rich red colour. Which may I add will go perfectly with my crimbo jumper which is currently stashed away atm- side note, when will it become acceptable to wear crimbo jumpers again!? Its called 'Rioja Red', and looks absolutely beautiful on the lips. Maybe use lipliner with this one for a wow factor.

Shade number four is my fave. Its called 'birthday suit' and its the perfect browny nude shade that I've been looking for. The only thing I find I do have to exfoliate with this one and use a lipbalm so it goes on smoothly and doesnt go crumbly. which is a little let down. But by all means this colour is B.E.A.UTIFUL. 

These usually full size retail at £4.99 Each and you can get them from your nearest boots or superdrug. Or online at http://www.sleekmakeup.com/uk 

Happy Shopping,
Take care,
SIMPLY KATSINELLA

Number 11- Dealing with Stress

Okay, so we all deal with stress in our day to day lives. But I live in a situation where tooooo much stress can affect my epilepsy. So naturally I'm a stressed out person. (work that one out!?)

Money
Every. Single. Person. Stresses about money, it comes hand in hand skipping down the road with stress. There's not much you can do about money but working out , budgeting and putting aside some pennies may be the trick. Assess how much you need this month; i.e bills, rent, car and so on. Leave some money for yourself too, treat your self. Maybe you saw a new lipstick come out , or you cant walk past lush without a bath bomb. Do IT! don't go cray but enjoy your life. Save up and you have a bigger reward maybe a holiday, or a new bed?

Work
Don't let work over take you life. Me and Shaun have a time limit at home to talk about work. We save 30 mins to rant about our day , then that's it. Home is home, work is work. If your not happy where you work then look for somewhere else. Do something you enjoy!

Friends
Friends are a difficult subject because sometimes your friends can be the main cause of your stress.. Take out the negative influences in your life. Keep and cherish those who bring a positive outlook and encourage you to strive and achieve. But also don't mind sitting in your jammies eating your weight in Chinese.

Talk
Talk to someone about what you feel stressed or anxious about. Maybe your parents, sibling, friends, boyfriend, girlfriend, hubby, wife or even your doctor. Stress isn't good for you so talking will help you feel a bit better.

Life's to short to worry about mundane things- I know , I know, I'm a MASSIVE hypocrite.

Take Care
SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Found online- @lifehackquotes

Number 10 - Dealing with epilepsy

I'm not going to lie epilepsy sucks balls. I hate everything about it ; the lack of control, seizures, uncertainty and misunderstanding from your peers.

Its not considered as a MAJOR disability but too some of us it can be. Personally I find that there isn't enough education and information on the subject. 'Oh so your epileptic? Do you do that weird seizure thing, y'know, on the floor' No I don't. 'Oh well' But my epilepsy affects me differently. I have partial complex seizure and sometimes focal and so on. I zone out , lose focus. Sometimes I cant control my body so I collapse. I sometimes scream in my sleep. I may forget where I am, who I'm with and what I'm doing.

My epilepsy is caused by stress and lack of sleep. I hear 'try not to stress out' EVERYDAY but its not easy. With epilepsy it can come hand in hand with anxiety and depression. I may not want to leave the house some days.

But guess what..

Epilepsy doesn't define me. I'm strong. We all have a dodgy five mins. Mine may take a day to recover. But then it's a new day. I put my chin up, lashes on, wash my hair and take the day.

Take Care,
SIMPLY KATSINELLA

Not my image- found on tumblr

Number 9- Monday 19th September- Sunday 25th September

A week in my shoes

Monday 19th September;

This week I managed to gain the WORST cold ever... well I'm sure people have really bad cold but this was painful! This day was the first day at Shauns Job.. It's alot to get used to starting somewhere new, but I'm so proud how well he's done.

Tuesday 20th September;

I wish I had done something really productive but instead a laid in bed , nursing my cold. Watching youtube videos, catching up on SacconeJoly's (Yaaaaaaay another girl) and planning some ideas for saturdays Baby shower!

Wednesday 21st September;

I had work on this day.. y'know the grind, working hard making that dolla... dealing with personal worries... Also had shauns little sister round to stay and keeping me company. Made my famous spicy sausage pasta! 

Thursday 22nd September;

This was a fun filled day shopping.. didn't get out of bed until 11:30am. I'm what they call a lady of leisure.. I wish! Got some cute bits for my besties baby shower. wrapped up pressies and baked cakes!

Friday 23rd September;

Fridays my food shopping day- the day where I have to be an adult. So the day was spent doing the shop, cleaning and general errands. We had some late night visitors and 'accidentally' ordered a whopping Chinese  (what diet?!?) and had a few cheeky drinks!

Saturday 23rd September;

HAPPY BABY SHOWER DAY!!! The SO was working so I had my besties babyshower. It was so lovely to see the beautiful bridesmaids from her wedding (where has the time gone?!) We ate too much, laughed too much. Played some rude & disgusting games and had a blast.

What I wore: Stripey white top (£14 Matalan)

Blue Highwaisted jeans (£16 Matalan)

Black ankled heeled boots (£12 Select)

Gold hoops (Have no idea, but you can pick some up from matalan for £3)

Rose Gold Watch DKNY (was gifted)

Makeup :

STAY 24HR MAYBELLINE

COLLECTION LASTING PERFECTION CONCEALER

RIMMEL STAY MATTE CLEAR COMPLEXION POWDER

SEVENTEEN MATTE POWDER FOR UNDER EYES

MAYBELLINE COLOUR TATTOO IN PERMANANT TAUPE FOR BROWS

MAC COOL TONES PALLETTE ; COZY GREY AND BRUN IN BROWS

MUA CLEAR MASCARA FOR BROWS

REVOLUTION INNOCENT PALLETTE (SELECTION OF SHADES, PLUM COLOURS)

RIMMEL DRAMATIC LASH

ARDELL DEMI WISPIES LASHES

COLLECTION WATERPROOF LIQUID LINER

LIPSTICK- VINTAGE ROSE RIMMEL 

Sunday 25th September;

I worked the usual 10am-4pm, then went to Shaun's parents for spag bowl and cheesecake and fell asleep on the sofa cuddled up watching dead pool.

This week made me appreciate all the time that I can get to spend with Shaun, even if we are just laying on the sofa. And also this week I've learnt you don't have to be unhappy and lonely. Admitting to yourself you think you need help and company is the first step of acceptance and getting better.

TAKE CARE,

SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Number 8- Work those eyes

Here I'm gonna talk about my affair with makeup... I'm obsessed to the point where I dont think about how much an item is, it just miraculously ends up in my basket.

I somehow just end up in the shop and makeup jumps in my basket 'Stick it on the card' 

One of my most dearest possessions is the Mac Cool Neutral Pallette. 

Oh my word the velvet texture, the pigment, the oh la la and the va va vum. I use this pallette EVERYDAY.

Orginal photo from SIMPLY KATSINELLA

Image from 'macosmetics'

I use cozy grey mixed with a dash of brun in the eyebrows after I make an outline with Maybelline Colour Tattoo in Permanent Taupe. I love everything about this pallette and its a must have. Now reduced to £49.50 I got mine when it was the £65.00. Go grab it ladies.

Take Care

SIMPLY KATSINELLA

Number 7- Its okay to cry

Its okay to cry..
Its okay to sit down after a long day and just cry whether to yourself or with someone.

Since July my life feels like a roller coaster. Me and the SO moved out, yeah!!! We finally got a little house together, and whilst that's great it has tested us ALOT. We bicker but I do still love his dopey face.

Bills Bills and more bills, were more than capable of paying them but the setting up is soooooooooo confusing.
I swear I've been on the phone to the energy company at least twice a week, amongst other phonecalls I've been trying to maintain and improve the garden and trying to work.

Lets be honest, my garden looks like a sh*tstorm. Its all dead, someone before us must have thought f*ck this lets strim it all. NO NO NO. no matter the amount of lavender I put down it looks awful!

Anyway on top of all this , guess who bloody dropped her phone down the toilet?! ME- there I was minding my business going to DO my business and my phone drops out of back pocket and plummets head first into the toilet, quickly followed my hand and my scream of devastation. It's alive.... just.

Work been difficult too! Bad news over and over again.

So its okay to cry, I feel much better about it...
Cry it away, order a Chinese have a glass of wine.
You deserve it.
Take Care
SIMPLY KATSINELLA

Number 6- Too hot for that Tom-Foolery

Well, the sun has most definitely has it's hat on today! Here in UK down south we are experiencing a heatwave. I know its incredibly British to moan about the sunshine, BUT its too hot! 28 degrees is too hot for me to function.

The fan is on, next to no clothes on, I'm essentially laying in my own sweat in order to get cooler. Gross.. I know.

So I'm currently , according to glow, in my ovulation week! Meaning this week is the higher percentage of a little bean growing in my tummy. It's way to hot for that tom-foolery. But this is my favourite week in my cycle, because it allows me to get excited, and plan ahead.. Its the TWW around the corner I hate..

So this week, ideally the BABY DANCE is every other day, which allows us to have a break and for my SO to have a little rest. So this week, its all scheduled. When, where and how! But we are still having fun!

Most important thing to remember , HAVE FUN.

Take care,
SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Number 2- A rough idea..

Okay, so I'm one of them girls who fanaticises about having a family , getting married doing all the life goals.. So the day that my SO said maybe we should start trying to have a baby. My immediate thought was Yay! All we need to do is to have sex and that will happen...

Oh boy was I wrong.

I had been on the mini pill for 6-7 years. Obviously I tried to have breaks at some point, but the mini pill basically stopped me from having a period, and at the time I thought 'Praise the high heavens that I don't have a visit from the dreaded Aunt Flo every month..' Now I'm starting to hate my self.

So back to current time, I thought maybe stopping the pill and next month you'd be pregnant.. That's what they teach you in sex ed. DONT HAVE UNPROTECTED SEX OR ELSE. Each month we try different things, so in previous months I had just been laying still after, raising hips, legs all sort.. It wasn't successful but gave us both a giggle.

The scary bit is how down you start to feel about it, which is the worse thing. Every one says don't worry it will happen or just don't think about it. You can't, you become obsessed. Disappointed every time you see Aunt Flo's ugly face. The thing that hurts the most is my SO's face when I ask him to chuck me down a tampon or run to the shop. But we'll keep trying.

So now we have brought this thing called 'Conceive Plus', its a fertility lube. I had done so much research on it before buying. At first you think its just a gimmick, so I research the website and other fertility lube websites. It was £8.99 on amazon. I thought what's £8.99 (maybe the cost of one pregnancy test) it may or may not work. No harm in trying.

I have seen many reviews on this product, so once this months over may write a review for any other TTC's.

Take Care,

SIMPLY KATSINELLA.

Number 5- Hello Aunt Flo.

I'm not going to lie ladies, I HATE this part. 

The day I got my period, Aunt Flo, The red sea, The crimson wave, I had a major meltdown, I tried to hold it in. At work I was trying to be cheerful whilst my body felt like she was betraying me. I kept it together until I got into his car. We had company and didn't want to be seen crying like a crazy lady in the front seat. I waited it out. Kept quiet, just said I was tired...

When I finally got up to safety of our room, I cried. I messaged my BFF who's so involved in my journey. The SO finds me and for some reason, it clicks , he knows why I'm sad straight away. You can see he is. We cuddled and cried. 

I think that's what is needed. Cry it all out. I felt better after. 

So a new month begins, I'm starting to look after my body more and more each time. Learning new tricks.

I've learnt, its okay to cry. You need to, except that loss. But remember each time your period comes, your body is NOT betraying you (It bloody well feels like it though) its telling you, 'Hey, you can get pregnant you beautiful specimen, Just not yet.'

So Chin up, Shoulders back, Lashes on, Heels slaying. Take the world as your catwalk.

Take Care,

SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Number 4- All about that Glow

Part of me wishes this post was about my love of highlighter- which may I say it's like fairy dust has been sprinkled on your cheek bones.

But no its about my other love; 'GLOW' the app. It's a period tracker app which allows you to track your period(obvs) , your ovulation, symptoms, sex, and is brilliant for advice from the glow team or other ladies on the app.

(Most discussion and comments are positive , but you may see a few who the spoil the fun, which are promptly shut down via glow team or other ladies)

It's fair to say I'm OBSESSED. I even have my SO on the app. We track everything on this app, and I mean... Everything. You can set your period dates in and will automatically calculate when you will ovulate.

You can also track your symptoms, which Glow will give you daily insights about.

Then you also have the discussion area which are both interesting and entertaining. The reason I love this app, is because it allows you to ask other ladies about things you would hate to ask in person. For example theres usually a discussion about different types of cervical mucus, or advice on a personal situation. You do have the TMI section, which I will add is not for the faint hearted, and I wouldn't recommend unless you over 18 because some images are personal and graphic.

My favourite is that all the queens are slaying it on there. Spreading baby dust and confidence to each and every beautiful women on the app. Helping each other when needed and being in a community where we all have an inkling of what each other are going through. So go on, have a nosey at it, I dare you.

P.S THE APP IS COMPLETELY FREE UNLESS YOU GO PREMIUM , THE PREMIUM ACCOUNT ALLOWS YOU TO ACCESS MORE INFORMATION ABOUT OVULATION, CONCEPTION, AND IVF.

Take care,

SIMPLY KATSINELLA.

Number 3 - The dreaded two week wait

Now I don't think its just me who hates the TWW, is it? Its where trying to concievers (is that a real word) slowly lose there marbles. You start to think just about everything and anything is a pregnancy symptoms. 'My big toe hurts- maybe that's a early pregnancy symptom, I'll google it' I know ladies, I've been there. In fact I'm there at the moment.

Its where you convince yourself its different this month, this is the month, only to meet the ugly face of Aunt Flo. This month all I've had is cramps, cramps and more cramps. I'm always sleepy so I no longer consider that as a symptom. The cramps feel like Aunt Flo's going to be a complete bitch and turn up early, or that I need to go...

My search engine is currently full of early pregnancy symptoms searches. But now I try not to obsess!

I do track my cycles and my symptoms on my beloved app 'GLOW' - I reckon this app is my new best friend but more of that another time!

Take care,

SIMPLYKATSINELLA

Number 1 - Get to know me.

As this is my first post , I've seen other bloggers do this tag. This blog is my journey TTC, and may have some personal bits and bobs chucked in!

What is your middle name?: Anne. After my Auntie Sheila Anne

What was favourite subject at school?: Drama, I'm pretty sure the only subject I turned up to! I studied theatre at a level too!

What is your favourite drink?: Peach Ice Tea!

What is your favourite song at the moment?: Take me home- Jess Glyne

What is your favourite food?: At the moment anything with mushrooms or onion rings..

What is the last thing you bought?: A sandwich.. Chicken, bacon, stuffing and I added cranberry sauce at home.. Too early for christmas sandwiches?

Favourite book of all time?: Has to be the Harry Potter Series...

Favourite Colour?: Yellow!

Do you have any pets?: I have a cute kitty called Poppy and a shih tzu called Honey.

Favourite Perfume?: Paca Rabanne - Olympea.

Favourite Holiday?: I've actually had three great holiday recently, one was with one of my girls and then another in Malta for a hen do! Then me and my SO went away for a weekend in the UK, we had no wifi or signal and it was such a lovely time.

Have you ever been out of the country, if so how many times?: Yes which I feel lucky enough to say. Would love to travel more though.

Do you speak any other language?: Unfortunately not

How many siblings do you have?: I have two brothers and a sister

What is your favourite shop?: Besides makeup stores, I do love a bit of matalan at the moment!

Favourite restaurant?: I do love 'pub grub' at the mo

When was the last time you cried?: The other night when I watched a programme about a kitten

Favourite Blog/YouTubers?: At the moment I love the YouTubers KKandbabyJ.. I'm obsessed!

Favourite Movie?: I don't really have a fave movie, I tend to watch them once and thats it! I do love musical though.

Favourite TV show?: Geordie Shore, The walking dead, and have only recently hopped on the Game of Thrones bandwagon!

PC or Mac?: PC

What phone do you have?: Iphone..

How tall are you?: 5ft - So tiny!

Can you cook?: I like to pretend I can, but I can cook spicy things, which my SO HATES... 

 Okay so thats a bit about me, any questions let me know. Signing out,

SIMPLY KATSINELLA